Sick at Two Months – What I’m Doing


I knew it was coming.  It was only a matter of time before Magnus caught a cold.  As much as I try to keep the boys separated when Johannes is sick, its virtually impossible to do.  So now here we are, Magnus is exactly two months, and he is sick.  No fever, no cough, just sinus stuffiness and congestion.

I find myself less panicked than I was the first time Johannes was sick, but not at all less worried.  My fears are still the same, will he be able to rest?  what if he stops breathing during the night?  How do I help him breathe better?

Some remedies I remembered right away, while others were new to me.  But so far here is what I’ve found to work.

(1) Eucalyptus essential oil on his chest, feet and a couple of drops on his clothing every few hours as the smell disappears.

(2) Vicks humidifier on with the Vicks vapour pad running during the night.

(3) Nursing every two and a half hours.  Because of his stuffy nose he will not nurse if he is awake, so I let him fall asleep and then feed him in his sleep when he is calm and his nose seems to be a little bit more clear.

(4) Putting two drops of saline solution in each nostril, followed by suctioning the buggers out with the Nosefrida snot sucker.

(5) Letting him sleep strapped to my body in the K’tan wrap during the day.

(6) Elevating his mattress so its at a little bit of an incline.

(7) Running a steaming hot shower with eucalyptus oil in the bottom and sitting in the steam with him for a couple of minutes.

This seems to help, but its not a cure.  Magnus is still sick and he’s still sad and miserable.  I still find myself worried, sad and contemplating whether or not to sleep on the floor of his room in a sleeping bag tonight.

Oh, and coffee…I’ve been drinking lots of coffee.  Its a must.

P.S.  I do realize that I need a manicure pretty badly.

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Sleep Deprived Forever


I’m going to be sleep deprived forever, or at least for the next couple of years I figure.  The whole daylight saving business really messed with Magnus’ sleep schedule, and now I’m hardly sleeping at all.  His cuteness wears off after the first few hours, and by 2am I am just about ready to feed him to the raccoons.

ok ok don’t yell at me!  I’m joking.  I would never feed this kiddo to a raccoon! sheesh!  But sleep is at a premium these days, although I seem to be less stressed out about it all than I used to be with Johannes at first.  I know that the sleepless nights come and go, but eventually they disappear entirely and are replaced by big kid demands like back rubs and water runs.  And just as good night sleeps return to me, I will long for a little babe with goofy smiles and little coos to wake me up at 2 am again.

Happy Friday sleepy peeps.

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Reflecting on Motherhood

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Although Johannes is closing in on his fourth birthday and even though Magnus is almost two months old, sometimes being a mother…someone else’s mother…still catches me by surprise.

I’ve immersed myself completely in this role.  I love my boys with every fiber of my being.  I feel fortunate and humbled to be their mom, to keep them safe and guide them through life.

Are there frustrating moments?  Yes!  oh yes yes yes.  Sometimes I lose my temper, mostly at Johannes.  Patience is at a premium lately and unfortunately I sometimes find myself on the brink of madness.  I lash out and then it makes me sad.  I look at my boys and feel guilty for not having more patience and not being more in control of my emotions.

Are there moments where I wish I could just be alone?  Yes!  Especially bathroom time.  I savour every moment.

But then there are also the amazing moments.  The ones that catch me by surprise at times when I least expect them to.  The times when Johannes out of the blue comes and gives me a giant hug and tells me I’m the best mommy he has.  I won’t remind him that I’m the only mommy he has, because I would like to believe that its not by default that he things I’m great.  Or the times when he asks me if he can hold his “little tiny brother” and then I hear him whisper how much he loves him in Magnus’ ear.  Or the times when Magnus gives me his big giant gummy smile, or gives off little smirks in his sleep.

I’ll take the good with the bad.  Motherhood will likely be an ever evolving process for me.  I’ll grow and learn right along side my two boys.  As they grow into men, I will grow into a matriarch.  I will learn from my mistakes and be better for the days ahead.

Take Me to the Farm Mom

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I couldn’t help myself, I wanted a pumpkin patch photo of Johannes and Magnus, but what I got was so much more than that!  Friday morning Johannes and I had dentist appointments, so when he asked me for the 200th time to take him back to “the farm” I figured, why not.  So my friend Nicole and I planned it out and took our boys to Springridge Farm in Milton.  Close to the dentist, and close to my mom and dad’s for nap time.  The boys ran and played.  There was a lot of giggling, screaming and sweaty hair.  I got exactly 20 photos of the kids in the pumpkin patch and each photograph includes one or both of them either tossing pumpkins down the hill, or rolling on top of the pumpkins.  They’re so silly.  And well, Magnus just slept in the fresh air while my grandmother pushed him around.  So in the end there was no pumpkin patch photo, no staged shot for the family album…but I hope that maybe the boys got a morning full of awesome memories, and some fun pictures to remember it by.

Oh and to clarify, Johannes is covering his ears because he is TERRIFIED of the chickens, not the sound.  He covers his ears when something is terrifying.  Go figure!

The Giant Spider

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The giant spider is out again.  Michael wanted to do it bigger and better this year, meaning more webs, rats, mini spiders and even a fog machine.  Johannes and Michael did all the decorating, and Magnus and I just showed up for the finale.  It was quite the exciting event.  I think above all else I love how excited Johannes gets about holidays now.  Thanksgiving dinner parties, Halloween decorations, and lets not forget Christmas just around the corner!

Doing It Differently

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When Johannes was born I read all the parenting books, watched all the parenting videos, researched baby products and read all the consumer reports there were.  I was inexperienced and naive.  I assumed that babies could be raise by clear cut rules.  That we could fix sleep problems by reading someone’s theory or step by step guide.  And through trial and error and day by day we figured it all out anyways.  We figured out what worked for us and what didn’t and most definitely made mistakes along the way.  I say “we” because I certainly did not raise Johannes on my own, but 99% of the “research” was all me.  There were tough times and easy times but we worked it out and somewhere along the way the hard times were forgotten, and all that remains is the positive memories.

Since Magnus was born things have been much simpler.  Easier somehow.  I feel confidence in my role as a mother.  I don’t have Amazon book orders on standby in my checkout basket.  I let him sleep on me all day every day, or beside me if he so wishes….except at night when he likes to sleep in his own bed.  I don’t have the breathing monitor on at all, I don’t stress if he fusses and grunts, or sneezes or hasn’t pooped in 5 hours.  I just live and enjoy.  I think that along with confidence in myself as a mother, raising Johannes taught me how quickly the time goes.  That bad times WILL fade and they will be replaced with happy memories.  So I don’t sweat the small stuff.  And you know what?  I don’t think I am screwing it up.  In his short little 6 weeks of life, Magnus is such a happy guy.  He’s sweet and calm and I couldn’t have asked for a better fit with our family.  His new smile is infectious and I cannot wait to snuggle him in the mornings, while Johannes and Minggis the cat sit with us on the nursery bench.  I think I’m happier too.

And p.s.  don’t you just love kissing newborn squishy faces and that wrinkly bit of head scalp?!  ahhhhh its my favorite thing ever along with the baby smell, but I can’t smell Magnus.  As Johannes likes to tell me all the time, “mom you smell like Magnus”.  I guess I can’t smell myself.