This have been quiet, our hearts have been heavy. Two weeks ago Magnus ate something he shouldn’t have with our caregiver at the time. His immature digestive system couldn’t cope and he developed a serious case of food poisoning. I got the call while at work from my dad, who happened to be at our house for the afternoon. I rushed home to find a super sick little soul. It was a hard 12 hours, but what came next was even worse. The food poisoning dissipated but the dehydration caused Magnus’ body to become very very constipated. I wouldn’t have thought much about it but in the days that followed I had never seen anyone, ever, in as much pain as I saw our son. It took almost a whole week, days of sleeplessness, medications, and more, to get him through it, but he did and we are so thankful for it all.
Sickness happens, but it affects us as parents in a much different way that it affects our kids. You watch them suffering and feel completely helpless. You wish you could trade places with them and take away their pain, knowing full well that you can’t. Its an isolating and very lonely feeling.
I spent four days with Magnus strapped to my chest. My arms heavy from the weight of his little body, yet I couldn’t bring myself to put him down. The only comfort he found was in my arms, asleep with his head on my chest and his legs curled into his wee body. It brought back memories of his infancy except fear and worry clouded the happiness.
In our case things got better and Magnus was back to his happy self within about a week. We had to find a new caregiver, but I feel like maybe things happen for a reason. Maybe there’s a greater plan for us. Certain people meant to be in our lives, I have to hope and believe, and trust that we are on the path we are meant to be on, doing the best we can.
Oh, and after Magnus got better, Johannes and I got to spend some one on one time while my parents took Magnus for a few days. During his little scare we didn’t get to spend much time with Johannes because we were so focused on making his brother better. So spending two days just with him was pretty wonderful and just as important I hope.