In lieu of a bits + pieces post I thought it might be therapeutic to put in writing how I’ve been feeling lately.
To say overwhelmed is actually an understatement. Drowning feels much more appropriate. When I really look at the reasons behind it all they seem trivial, but I believe it is the continued stress combined with an accumulation of work engagements that has now taken its toll on me. To back up just a little bit, shortly after we moved into our new house I received notice that I was being audited, or to be specific, my corporation was being audited…the one I opened when I started consulting. This was in April. Since then my case has been punted around from auditor to auditor for 3 months before finally landing on someone’s desk willing to take the audit on. Then this auditor too disappeared for several months while taking an extended summer off without any notice to myself or my accountant. So now we’re in October, and this nightmare continues.
Work too has started to become overwhelming. So now I’m tired, stressed and cranky.
I know I shouldn’t let the little things get to me. I know that I have a happy healthy little boy, a wonderful husband, great supportive parents, and so on, but it does. I stress. That’s what I do! I don’t let things go. I worry and brood and make myself sick with sleepless nights and junk food, which in the end only adds to my depressive state because now I’m stressed, depressed, tired and chubby.
So that is where I am at. Now. Today. I am a stressed out grumpy mess who needs one heck of a drink and maybe a vacation.
P.S. On a positive note, I finally purchased a bar cart, and its fully stocked.