I’m not sure what I expected when J started Montessori. I knew there would be tears. I knew there would be an adjustment period. I knew there would be interrupted sleeps. But I wasn’t quite prepared for how gut-wrenching it is to leave your baby screaming for you in the hands of strangers. Its been 4 days, and I know its not a long time, but I am emotionally exhausted by it. I hate the mornings because I know I have to walk Johannes up the classroom stairs, open the door, kiss his tear-streaked face and wish him goodbye. I sit in my car in the parking lot below and cry for a few minutes every time.
But I have also noticed some positive changes since we started school. Johannes’ cry has changed from one of fear to one of annoyance, annoyance that he has to go THERE again.
I noticed that Johannes now takes an interest in other children, whereas before he would ignore them.
He has expanded his vocabulary by 3 more words: “mommy” “daddy” and “down”.
He tries to have elaborate conversations with us now.
He gestures and tries to articulate what he feels.
He made a friend and she gave him his first kiss. I’m almost certain he won’t remember it, but I will…I saw it happen and it melted my heart.
He started napping without a soother, and although they’re not the 3+ hour naps he has at home, he is slowly nudging his way towards the 2 hour mark. I take this as a good sign.
Today marks 1 full week since he started school…4 full days of class time…1 half day…and one long weekend at home with mom and dad.
We’re working through this all. Its definitely been a learning experience for all 3 of us.
Boston cream cupcake recipe coming up later today.