If you were to look at the majority of blog and Instagram posts from around the world I bet you would see a consistent pattern of depicted happiness. Its easy to photograph the good times, to smile and write about the funny times, the inspiring times, or those that you want to remember. Usually the hard days are overlooked because we just want to get them over with, or because as mom’s we’re too busy tending to sick cranky children to remember to write about how crappy we actually feel.
But today is a crappy day. Johannes is sick, again. We don’t know what’s wrong. In the past six weeks he has been sick three times. High fever and nausea, a sore stomach and bad taste in his mouth, each time he’s had it the doctors dismissed it as a stomach bug. This time the fever has been coming with a vengeance every three hours or less, and alternating fever medicine is not helping. Yesterday his Pediatrician ran tests, blood, urine, stool and an ultrasound of his abdomen. So now we wait for the results. In the meantime I have to hear my son cry in pain, watch him shake and speak none sense as his delirium sets in.
I don’t sleep. I haven’t slept. Because before Johannes got sick Magnus had bronchitis, and then his vaccines. When Magnus naps Johannes is awake. When Johannes naps, his fever spikes, Magnus wakes up, or the mailman rings the door bell. That’s what today is all about.
All this to say that we all have bad days.
Today is a bad day. Its a day I wish I could walk out the front door and let someone else take over for a night. Just so I can sleep. So if you’re having a bad day, a frustrating day, a day where you want to shut the bathroom door and cry, just know we all have them. EVERYONE has bad days. Today is a bad day.